baybay.
if there was a heart that was for disliking a post. i would do it. not because i didnt like what you were saying, but because i dont like you feeling that way. but sadly i know myself how terrible you felt right then. the difference between you and me is, that you are lucky. because you got away from it all. you get to start over in every sense of the word. i’m completely and uterly jealous of the fact that you dont have to be reminded by everyday things such as driving by a place where you two took a walk or even being in your own room.
girl i know nothing i can say will change your mind. but i want you to know how wonderful you are and how you so much DESERVE to feel good about yourself. like i’ve said sooo many times, you are tough as a rock with everyone in your life but yourself when it comes to this. but its time to tell yourself that your not going to care anymore. not completely forget about it, no, that will never happen. but just give yourself a different outlook on the entire experience.
you told me once that you were starting to feel less sad about not having it anymore, and instead feeling happy that it happened. that you were lucky to have that experience in your life. and i really really took that to heart and i am constantly telling myself that and am even starting to feel it. everyday you should tell yourself the same thing. it happened. it was good. but now its over. and your going to have an even better experience with someone else. no one will ever be the same. thats what i have a hard time dealing with. but you will find someone that is amazing in other ways. dont settle. but meet people. find what you like and dont like. and i know you’ll find someone perfect for you.
im actually enjoying meeting new guys. i really didnt think i would. but then again. im not over it yet. but i’m enjoying friendships. (which btw i need to tell you of a new one.. but its someone we know.. from hs..not our age.. older.. goodlooking.. very nice.. we are hanging out sunday.. AS FRIENDS. and im actually so set in this AS FRIENDS deal.. i know usually im not but i SO AM this time. you dont even have to worry.)
but seriously. you have so many opportunities to meet new people now. you get to start fresh. no one knows you. no one knows who you dated or for how long or how it hurt you. you can be who ever you want to be. but always love who you are. because there are so many people that do. now you have to love you too.
love you always bf.
2 years ago • Notes